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A Journey from Shadows to Self-Expression

(story in first person narrative)

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Since I was 14, I often found myself uncomfortable speaking up or sharing my thoughts. Giving speeches or engaging in lengthy conversations was something I avoided, preferring to keep my words to a minimum. Revealing too much about myself felt overwhelming, so I found peace in remaining in the background, unnoticed, and making waves anonymously. Only my siblings and closest friends knew I could be fun and chatty, but most of the time, I retreated into my reserved shell.

During my school years, presentations were a necessity, but I never enjoyed them. I rarely interacted much, and when I did, it took a deliberate effort to draw energy from within to maintain the act. This began to feel uncomfortable after university. I didn’t know what it was at the time, but I started to notice a longing to be intentional about my friendships and connect more deeply with people. I envied those who could express themselves freely and have lovely times together, wishing I could feel that freedom.

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I recognized this longing but struggled to live with a totally free mind. My interactions with family and longtime friends were different from how I engaged with new faces or colleagues. I couldn’t understand why I would suddenly want to act anonymous and avoid being perceived.

This year, I decided to be intentional about embracing vulnerability. I met a lady whose lifestyle began to change my perception of hospitality. She was relational, unafraid of making mistakes, and constantly put herself out there. Although it conflicted with my self-perception, I admired her openness. Her daily updates left me smiling and appreciating her willingness to share herself with us.

I often prayed to God to align my soul, body, and spirit, fearing I was operating from a place of disjointedness. On May 23, 1996, I found my answer. I was led to a response that revealed something I had never noticed before. A scripture immediately came to mind: “It is the glory of God to conceal a thing” as well as (Ephesians 1:17–18).

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I had prayed to God about wanting to hear from Him about myself, and I felt assured that He was beginning to reveal what I needed, step by step.

I am excited to meet the inspiring version of myself that is emerging. She will be much better than I was five years ago.

The above story is a reminder to strive to know God better, as in Him, we find the best version of ourselves. Don’t be afraid to evolve!

– A Step of Faith